Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Clause.


Santa is my favorite thing about Christmas. Even though some would consider me WAY too old to believe in him, I just can’t stop loving him! When you’re the embodiment of joy and selfless giving, you deserve a LOT of respect! This is why I always get excited about looking over and seeing Santa at the mall. Even though I just wave at him now, I still see him every time. I guess it’s my belief and love in Santa that I’ve always considered myself to be one of Santa’s elves. I became a full on elf since the time that I made my mom buy me a Hannah Montana guitar so that I could be a secret Santa to a little girl that I didn’t even know. One of my favorite times of the year is the week of school before Christmas break. People bring in presents for their friends or the teachers. I usually bring my friends some little things that they can play with (like slinkies last year and lanyards this year) and bring the teachers a box full of homemade stuff (oatmeal cookies and pumpkin raisin bread this year). I just love the look of surprise on someone’s face when you tell them, “Yes! That’s for you!”

As a junior, the freshmen here at school would probably laugh if they heard that I still believe in Santa. I can’t help it, though! I’ve always been a fan of mysterious characters, but Santa is mysterious only in his appearance. We don’t really know if he wears a red suit. But at the same time, we DO know that he wears a red suit. If we know Santa as the red clad giver of joy, then let him wear red! If we know Santa as wearing sweat pants and a T-shirt, then let him wear that! It doesn’t matter if they have a big, white beard or not. If someone gives a gift out of the goodness of their heart, then, by default, they are Santa.

Merry Christmas!


How Convenient…

Share a time when you narrowly avoided disaster.

As I’m typing this, my group members for a project that we just presented are placing our holiday decoration outside. We literally JUST avoided disaster. The project was about the electromagnetic spectrum, lights, and music. The class period before this one, my group member came to ask me if I had her flash drive with our presentation on it. She had left it near me yesterday, and expected me to know it was there without telling me. Therefore, today, we had to quickly edit our power point and hope no one noticed. Personally, I think that they did notice. In fact, we were the only group to get more than one question about our project. It could have been worse, though. You win some, you lose some… literally.

At first I was afraid, I was petrified…

People are afraid of all kinds of things: spiders, the dark, or being enclosed in small spaces. Tell us about your greatest fear — rational or irrational.

I have three main fears.

The first one is being deserted by everyone I love. This isn’t my biggest fear because I would be able to handle it. I would also be able to understand why, if it ever came to that point in reality.

I am afraid of screaming that I can’t understand. This is kind of ironic because I like listening to some metal bands, with Crown the Empire, Attila, Bullet for my Valentine, Escape the Fate are the ones I listen to the most. Those are great, but they don’t scare me like french screamo… Have you ever heard french screamo? Mon dieu… 

My biggest fear took me a while to understand. At first I thought I was afraid of ghosts… then I thought it was a fear of the dark… but now, I know that I am actually afraid of going blind. I remember seeing my brother getting glasses the first time, and I wanted some (I regret that now, haha). Over time, my eyes started getting worse, even though my understanding of what I see is increasing (I can see the slightest difference in color). I really started to realize that I was afraid of being blind when my friend blindfolded me and told me to try to find her. I felt lost, and even though it was a lot brighter than it could have been, it was still pretty dark. I am still really scared of the dark, but now I know that I am just terrified of being blind.

Daily Prompt

ImageAn impending new year gives rise to reflection and goal setting. What will your goals for 2014 be? It’s never too early to start thinking about self improvement!

before I get into what I want to do, I want to talk about what I have accomplished this year!

  • I have started focusing on my own style of drawing. Before this, I used to be the Kirby of styles (put the style on and try to copy it).
  • I have been trying to stop procrastinating. It has worked a bit! still needs work, though.
  • I have been trying to broaden my speaking vocabulary. This has worked, too.  😀
  • After nearly ten years of nail biting, I have finally stopped! My nail polish looks much better with longer nails.

Now… what I want to do.

  • I want to pinpoint my drawing style. It’s a bit frustrating not knowing how you draw. Especially since my friends seem to have their style down  :c
  • I want to stop procrastinating completely.
  • I want to stop being so combative and easy to anger. It frustrates me when I can’t control my anger.  😦
  • I want to stop chewing on my lip. I do this a lot. I have been chewing on it since the first word I typed on this post. Let’s see if I can make it to the end without chewing?
  • I want to start making music. I mainly want to see if I can make dubstep or some electronic music.
  • I want to clean my room and arrange my games. I’m not very well known for having the cleanest of rooms…
  • I want to teach myself Japanese. I was doing pretty well, but then stopped. I know I can do it!
  • And finally…
  • I want to complete everything on this bottom list.

Super salad? (think about it…)

  • the ability to speak and understand any language
  • the ability to travel through time
  • the ability to make any two people agree with each other

Which would I choose?

First, the ones I wouldn’t choose and why. I’m really skeptical about the last one. It does say the power to make any two people agree, but does that mean that they understand one another? If I had the power to make any two people agree with each other, does that mean that I can include myself? If I had the power to make any two people really FEEL eachother, then I know that I wouldn’t have arguments with my mom. She doesn’t really understand some things.

I wouldn’t choose the first one, surprisingly. While it would be funny to be able to speak any language and troll my friends, I love the challenge of learning a language. I’ve been trying to teach myself Japanese for a while now, and it is really fun to try to figure out how to put the words together. It is like a puzzle that I can put together and laugh at myself when I get it wrong. Maybe this kind of relationship with language has something to do with the way my mom raised me. When I was little, she taped note cards with words on them to every surface of the house. One day, she moved the cards, and when my bro and I noticed, we started “earning” words by putting them in the right spot. We would have our cards and could make sentences like “The blue cat ate the purple rug.” It was endless fun and it still is today.

The one I would choose is The time travel one, however, it sounds a bit sketchy. This especially since language is mentioned separately. If I could time travel, I would want to do it Doctor Who style. You know… pop right out of the T.A.R.D.I.S and be able to understand the people of the time. If language is included in a nicely packaged deal, then I’m sold straight away! I would love to see the world… I would love to see the world of the past… I would like to see how people walked and talked in the past. I think I would try to stay away from the future, though. I’m not a fan of spoilers as it is, so I wouldn’t like that very much.

Daily Prompt

  1. What is your favorite word?
    I love the words solace, delicious, jiggle, and any three-syllable word.
  2. What is your least favorite word?
    I hate any words ending the same way as eighth… too many consonants xP
  3. What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
    colors turn me on creatively. I try my best to make whole pictures to highlight that color.
    Dubstep also turns me on creatively. All of the sounds put together really make my imagination go wild.
  4. What turns you off?
    People who overuse the word random really turn me off in every way.
  5. What is your favorite curse word?
    I like it when the f bomb is dropped properly  I also really like any unusually long insult (You incompetent imbecilic waste of natural selection, your brain would be put to better use in a baboon rather than squandered like it is in yours.).
  6. What sound or noise do you love?
    I love the sound of wrappers on a microphone, rustling of trees, and the crunch of feet in snow.
  7. What sound or noise do you hate?     I hate the sound of silence… I am really creeped out by the sound of screaming in a language that I don’t understand. (Especially French)
  8. What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
    I want to be a character designer for games. I would love to see my characters come to life and interact with each other.
  9. What profession would you not like to do? I would never want to be a plumber or work in an abortion clinic.
  10. If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
    I would love to hear God make a reference to games, or say, “I told you so,” even though the latter would make me annoyed and laugh at the same time

My Best Friend

What was the one experience that completely changed your life? What happened? How did it change your life?

One experience that changed my life was meeting my best friend. I met him on the first day of Middle School. He was having trouble with opening his locker, so I helped him out. It’s funny looking back and remembering finding a note in my locker asking me out. I told him that I didn’t want to. I was kinda hoping that he would just leave me to my quietness. I was really shy and quiet as a result of being bullied, so it made me uncomfortable that someone actually noticed me. He had to force me to sit with him at lunch. Honestly, I don’t think that I’ve told him lately how much he means to me. He could have saved my life by just smiling at me.

I think that I should tell him next time I see him.